Long Time; Long Post

I have been staying busy-ish.
 I got the little girl's quilt back from the quilter, so I bound it.
 My quilting friends liked the back more than the front.
 The pink fabric I found at a garage sale, plus the quilting design, made the quilt adorable. Kali liked it, and her mother sent me a photo of her, via text message, curled up on it.
 At Mom's house I started a new project that involved a bunch of little squares (you may have seen them in a previous post).
 The center motif is made up of seven florals surrounded by hexagons. I have nearly three done. 

 Atlanta has had a woefully rainy summer. That's why we don't have any locally grown tomatoes this year. People told me gardening was an exercise in futility. I have such awful water problems in my yard. Below is a photo of the gutter I banged on with a broomstick while standing in the rain, on a table, in an effort to dislodge a clog. Epic fail. (update: months later--landscaper Ada found a tennis ball stuck in it). 
So today I am trying to turn 12 placemats my Mother's friend made for her, out of Brannock-Patek Moda fabric, into a quilt.
 After sewing 8 inches, and then ripping it out, my Bernina started making a grinding sound. Fail again.
The night before last I dreamed my husband didn't die and he was standing in our closet wondering where his clothes went. And last night I didn't fall asleep until 3 a.m. because I was scared I'd have another haunting dream.
This afternoon I think I will go to the gym and beat the holy hell out of the heavy bag.


Oh, Karmen, I'm sorry you are having glitches in what you're trying to do, but you ARE accomplishing a lot. You've been through some major life changes and you are taking steps to move on. You will move on, and it IS going to get better. It's just going to take some time. You will win IF you don't quit. I have confidence in you and I'm praying for you. Hugs and love, Elaine
oldgreymare said…
please do what I have learned to do. Before climbing on ladders or doing something that could be hazardous, please call someone and tell them and arrange to call them back within a certain time, and if not they should check on you. I also now keep my cell phone in my pocket. After falls and near falls like you described and a good "talking to " by my daughter I've learned.....lol
WoolenSails said…
It will take time, it is not something you would want to go through and it hasn't been that long, let the feelings out. You have been really busy and I agree, pale yellow is not a good color, we did that in the basement and i hate it. I do love those blocks for the placemats, that will make a fun quilt.

Brenda said…
I haven't been through the loss of a husband, but my advice is to take it one day at a time and only do so much in one day. It will get better!
Gretchen said…
Sending you big hugs! You will make it through all of this and it will take a lot of time and a lot of different emotions. I think a grief support group is a good move in the right direction. Take care of yourself, ok? Sending you all the best wishes & peaceful thoughts.